Day 25 I went walking with a friend today. I was anxious and stressed and starting to feel sickly today. We had planned to have the girls go to Grandma's today, but I was feeling sad, shipping them off. I was feeling sad, that I was in this terrible situation,
Day 23 Post-second-chemo day 1. I slept hard last night. I awoke and couldn't remember what day it was... Friday. Still had to get the girls up and ready for school. The twins were moving slowly, so Daddy took Merus to school and I got the twins ready and somehow,
Day 22 Chemo Day cycle 2 ... the fight shoes... Chemo cycle 2. I am grateful for these days, for it is a sign that I am progressing through treatment. Cycle 2 of 4 complete today. I missed seeing my friend, Karen... but we did catch up before- and she looked
Day 21 I had my last day of work for a week and a half today. It has been nice to be back... people have been kind and welcoming and complimentary. I have not felt like a freak, like I was worried about. I felt almost normal. Life at home
Day 20 Today was a good day. I went to work. I wore my flapper hat and people told me I looked pretty. I put on pinky lipstick and did my eyes and even though my hair is thinning and I feel vulnerable and raw, I had affirmations today that
Day 18 Sunday. Easy day. We wake up late and lounge in our pjs. No one moves fast and without much conversation, we all just lay and be still. I noticed today that the twins are getting SO good at playing together, they can spend a half hour at the
Today was the day. I noticed my hair starting to fall out a couple days ago, and I knew it was going to be time soon. Yesterday, when I went back to work, my hair was falling out in clumps - and it was actually kind of disgusting. I was
Day 14 The day after the election, and the world was shocked. Donald Trump was elected president last night and it seems, no one thought that was even a remote possibility. The shockwaves going through the country today made it a somber day. He campaigned by mocking disabled people. He
Day 13 There are bigger things than what is happening to me. Tonight, the United States is electing a new President to lead the country for the next 4 years. Our country's morale, our international image, our economy and the welfare of so many citizens lies in the balance tonight.
Day 12 I realized today, as I was driving with Russ to St. Louis, I am dreading the return to my "normal life"... I am worried about the stress and the running and the feeling of being exhausted and like, I cannot ever get it all done. I am worried