Day 38 I devoted an entire post to my sweet Ellis... I have to say something about sister, Margaux. She is so entirely different from Ellis. They are both smart and sassy, fiery and funny, and they both love their sisters, both their twin and the Big Sissy. But that
Day 37 For some reason, I am having trouble putting Ellis to bed. She won't calm down for me and I guess, my patience is at an all time low. I almost dread bedtime, now, because of Ellis. I adore this child... I love snuggling with her and playing with
Day 36 It is late. I have had a long day and now a long night, prepping the elf... I have been worried. I found a small chain of enlarged lymph nodes on my left (cancer resection) side in my armpit on Wednesday. Wednesday afternoon, I was convinced I was
Day 35 Thank God for Christmas. In the midst of all this anguish and cancer and worry and terror, there is the fact that today is December 1st... and thus, Advent begins. (Advent in the church, I am well aware, started last Sunday... but for the children who LIVE through
Day 34 She is the picture of youth... beauty... young motherhood. She radiates energy and feisty-ness. She is full of life and sparkle and joy... she slays thousands of people every day with her innocence and hope and inspiration. She has unwavering faith. She was 24 years old when she
Day 33 I had someone send me a package today... a fellow twin mom, who has been following my journey. She did not know I would be having a terrible day (yesterday) when she sent it. She just sent me some things and tonight, when I opened it, I just
Day 32 Today, there are no smiling family photos. Today, there are no inspiring pics of the ocean, or of a gorgeous woman, looking into the wind with her long hair billowing behind her. Today, there is nothing nice to say. Today, I have had angst and sadness, frustration and
Day 31 I have been EXPERIENCING LIFE on overdrive... It has been the Thanksgiving holiday. My family has been here. I shopped and prepped and cooked and cooked... and then I ate, and cleaned and slept and ate again. We al did. It was a blast. In the house, it
Day 28 I took this picture on my walk yesterday. Walking out my door and looking down my long drive, it looked like a LONG WAY to go... but as I just put one foot in front of the other, my feet took me where I needed to go, my
Day 27 I have an unwritten rule... I have NEVER allowed Christmas decorations in the house before Thanksgiving. I have always LOVED Thanksgiving... I love the family aspect, the focus on togetherness and good food and tradition. ALWAYS, the day AFTER Thanksgiving, we could focus on Christmas, but before that,