So.... here I am, back in life. Four months out and even this morning, I am starting to feel like cancer is in my past. I know I will never be truly free again. The worry and the angst of recurrence and dying young will never leave me. Yet, my
It is the middle, actually near the end of March. I have thought and thought about and studiously considered this blog space since my last post in late December. I was so excited and thrilled and happy to be writing that last post. I was so relieved to be ringing
Day 64 The name of this blog is 64 days of chemo. As of today, I have made it 64 days. I am still alive. I started so fearfully, so terrified of the unknown. I have changed so drastically, both physically and emotionally, in 64 days... I am a different
Day 63 my first thing to see when I opened my eyes this morning... sweet girl loves having Mama sleep in the chair next to her bed. itty bitty little girl feet... love love the sweet girl toes... my tiniest girl... she loves her sleep and is a cuddler in
Day 62 Tomorrow, day 63, I have my last scheduled chemotherapy. I have no idea why, when I started this blog, I counted out 64 days. I was sure, and I counted several times, that it was going to be 64 days of chemo, from start to finish... but I
Day 61 Today was my first day back on call since my own cancer surgery... my first day taking it all on, being "the one" responsible for all of ortho... the first time carrying a beeper since September, seeing consults and doing my rounds in the hospital. I started the
Day 60 Come sit awhile I see the fear behind your eyes The baggage you are carrying Come step inside and sit awhile And set aside your pain. For here is laughter, tears and love, A time to live and breathe. Lay down your burden, Come sit a while And
Day 56 A good friend, and fellow breast cancer warrior, named Christy died of her cancer on the night before my bilateral mastectomy surgery. She was 40 years old and had a 4 year old little girl at home, named Lilly. During my surgery and recovery, my chemo and my
Day 55 I am part of a physician mom and cancer survivor Facebook group. 222 members, all doctors, all moms.. all strong and incredible and resilient women in various stages of cancer diagnosis, treatment, recovery and survivorship... it is quite an honor to be in the group... and the women
Day 54 I am now, today, 12 days post my last chemo. I am feeling ok... but so run down and fatigued... more so than all the times before. Last cycle, I was convinced that I was anemic, and that is why I was so tired. This time around, I