Day 47
Tuesday.
I was supposed to go over to St Louis today for Vit C, and as it turns out, the nurse who gives me my infusions got the flu, so I had a free day.
I took Merus to school, then came home and snuggled with the girls on the couch. They had breakfast and I spent some of the morning with them at the kitchen table, and we all did Christmas cards. I addressed some of mine and they both wrote one to Grandma and Grandpa. It was a sweet little morning. We went upstairs after and I did my little Christmas photo shoot, which always pleases me. It is so sweet to see them all dressed for Christmas, and I love to see them interact with each other. Somedays, there is kissing and hugging... today, there was tackling and wrestling, which was funny actually.... and made me laugh and smile.
I then went on a long walk. I wanted to walk a little extra today, to give my body some extra endorphins and make up for that Vit C I was missing. It was freezing and windy and cold... but I felt good to move and sweat and breathe. I spotted a heart on the ground, on my way back to the house. It felt like a little sign, to myself, that I was doing the right thing and taking CARE of myself.
After, I came home and watched a bit of tv, had the hottest shower ever.... and then set up for my phone consult with Namaste.
Back in September, when all of this started, I made a phone consult appointment with a naturopath in Colorado at a health clinic called Namaste. I wanted someone to advise me on all things HEALTH, instead of someone taking care of little snippets here and there and having me to do most of the threshing out and determining which things were right for me. Today, I spent 2 hours on the phone with Dr Stacey, who thankfully seemed to know her stuff... and now, I wait for her treatment plan.
She said I had made a good start. I have lots of room to improve.. lots of things she can see I can do. But I am better than I was... and like I said to her, I hope and pray that this is ENOUGH... and that I can continue to find and embrace HEALTH.
((I am particularly proud of my Vit D level at 67... pretty good for a measly starting point of 15 just 3 months ago. ))
So now it is up to me. I have to find what works for me, in terms of supplements and vitamins and exercise and diet. I continue to think of this as a revolution of self... a life-changing and life-affirming series of steps that I can take to prolong the GOOD life that I have.... to find value in every day... to cherish the good days and to make more good days and fewer bad days.
So.,. there is nothing to do other than to start. I have an idea, now, how to go about it. I have some starting points... and I am sure I will falter, but it is nice to have a place to begin.
And it is all for these beautiful girls... love them so much...
Luckiest Mama alive...
xoxox