Day 33
I had someone send me a package today... a fellow twin mom, who has been following my journey. She did not know I would be having a terrible day (yesterday) when she sent it. She just sent me some things and tonight, when I opened it, I just melted. I felt so dark yesterday- and the card that she sent spoke to me... "when it is darkest, then you can see the stars".
There is always something beautiful, even in darkness. There is always someone who is reaching out... someone who is listening... someone who feels the pain or who understands the struggle, and reaches out, and lets me feel less alone.
It helped. It saved me today, and yes, I am still in a funk.. but I am looking to love and friendship and kindness. I am banking on love.
A fellow mom, also battling breast cancer, posted this today. She also happens to be a physician and a psychiatrist... she has Stage IV cancer and is fighting every day to live, fighting every day to live and love and find gratitude and be with her beautiful family. This really moved me today, in addition to this package. THIS is how I want to live...
"When you live, give everything you've got. And when you have reached your limit,
give it more and
forget the pain of it.
Because as you face your death,
it is only the love that you have given and received which will count
and all the rest:
the accomplishments, the struggles, the fights
will be forgiven in your reflection.
And if you have loved well
then it will all have been worth it.
And the joy of it will last till the end.
But if you have not,
death will always come too soon
and be terrible to face."
~ Richard Allen
Love is the answer.
Love wins.
Love (and kindness) will save me, every day.
I am going to focus my energies on love.