Day 2
I spent the day waiting for things to happen. I kept waiting to feel nausea, waiting to feel ill. I awoke late and the first thing I did, was to check myself. Can I breathe, can I see? Can I move? Is there anything happening at all?
At each check, I was fine. Just a tiny bit of queasiness, maybe a bit dizzy... but nothing to have me take medicine. All three girls were off today, so I climbed the steps to the twins' room and we talked and laughed and snuggled in the green chair. We then went downstairs and laid on the couch and snuggled and talked. Then by 9:30, I had to get ready for Vitamin C... so we loaded the girls and took them to Grandma's and off Russ and I went to St Louis for Webster Family physicians and IV infusion of Vit C. I got 50 grams today. Vitamin C is supposed to give me a sense of well-being and bonus, Vit C can enter any rogue cancer cell and kill it.
We drove home - stopped for soup at Panera... and then once home, Russ and I went for an hour long walk. We have had the most incredible October weather. I was a good patient today and took my vitamins all day. I had a sauna and a steam shower, hoping to DETOX. After the sauna, we visited the girls at Grandma's and brought over their pjs. Then home for dinner and rest and tv and an episode of Game of Thrones.
My mouth feels dry... I can still swallow, but food seems to get caught. My neck is red and rashy- I have a great insatiable thirst... I keep feeling around with my tongue to see if there are sores forming...
I am just waiting for something physical to happen... and well- nothing really today. I will take it.
For now- I am just grateful. I know I can make it through a chemo day. I know I can do this... at least make it thus far.
I am grateful for my day today... for my life and my kids and my husband. I am grateful to be here.... to be fighting... to be praying and living and loving... I am grateful to be writing and thinking... Happy to be in the now... Right. Now. All is well.
Grateful for that. Grateful for now.